How I see me and others

Well, this is me: I'm not perfect, nor do I think of myself as perfect, nor will I ever be perfect. And I could say that I'm okay with that, but that would be a lie. Because deep down, everyone want to be perfect. Weither they choose to admit it or not, it's true. I think of myself as just a girl. Nothing more, nothing less. I, too, judge people on how they look. Everyone does. So don't start tsk, tsk-ing just yet. I see myself as a girl who has a weird shaped nose, a big mout( literally and figuretively), messed up hair, and big thighs. And no matter how much I want to change that, for some odd reason, I can't. I'm the kind of girl who sits in bed at night think "Why doesn't he like me? Why does he have to like her, the girl who's faker than a Barbie Doll?". Sometimes I honestly don't get it. I think I have told you about enough about how I feel about myself in this post...